Tense and Restless

4-HO-EPT
liv

Context

Name:
liv
Trip Date:
2021/09/11
Setting:
Bedroom
Gender:
Nonbinary
Height:
6'3 / 190.5cm
Weight:
~170lbs / ~77kg
Medications:
Cyproterone Acetate, Estradiol

Substances

Name Dosage Route of Administration
4-HO-EPT 45mg Oral, Powder

Introduction

I’d set aside this day to trip, and made sure I didn’t have any outstanding responsibilities or things to bug me later.

Onset

Onset
02:19:

Dosed the full 45mg of fine, gray powder. It’s bitter, and has an aftertaste of a brie rind? The taste went away after a few minutes, though water didn’t help.

02:39:

My heartrate is noticeably elevated, and I feel very tense. Almost anxious, but I don’t normally get anxious when trying new things.

Peak

Peak
02:53:

I feel jittery, almost uncomfortably so. Visuals are hard to notice, but are present in the dark without light sources. Very plain geometry overall, not very colorful.
There’s an urge to dose more, for whatever reason. I don’t give into it, because I don’t see what more this substance could give me, given I’m almost physically uncomfortable, and very tense.

02:56:

I have had to stretch and readjust more than once. I feel very restless, and it’s clear this isn’t really the substance to do while lying in bed.

03:11:

I grab a drink from the kitchen, and the visuals are a bit more noticable in low-light. Light sources have tracers, and objects move a few centimeters when refocusing, as if you have double vision and switch between looking through just one eye to the other. I feel too restless and uncomfortably tense for this to be enjoyable.

Offset

Offset
03:58:

By this point the effects are wearing off. I still have noticable tracers, and I’m tense. A mixture disappointment, boredom and just overall being uncomfortable drove me to dose 3-HO-PCP on the comedown. This helped with my elevated heartrate and restlessness, making it easier to just relax and let the former substance wear off.

Conclusion / Aftermath

Unfortunately, this turned out to be a disappointing substance. Maybe it would have been more enjoyable to do it while walking around or doing something, as I just felt very restless and tense the entire time. Aside from an elevated heartrate and the aforementioned things, there weren’t any other noticable physical effects. Headspace didn’t change at all, and visuals were incredibly light. The entire time I had to try to make myself comfortable, changing up the pillows nor music didn’t help.

I hope to revisit this substance in the future through a different ROA, along with EPT, which someone requested me to compare against.
I expect EPT to be similar but less potent, so I don’t think I’ll even bother with trying it orally first.

Related Effects

This trip report seems to include the following subjective effects:

Sensory

Cognitive