T1:30
I have become enraptured with a curious organism in my backyard and dedicate quite a bit of time to studying it closely. I feel euphoric, stimulated, and also very hot and sweaty. The visuals were most apparent by this point, resembling some sort of 3-dimensional crumpled diamonds. There were also lots of spirals, cones, and triangles, and all of these shapes blended together harmoniously to form ephemeral patterns that would transform and twist and rearrange in a state of constant yet coordinated flux. They were seemingly organic yet had a definite structure to them that implied some sort of deeper level of organization.The closed eyed visuals were some sort of 3 dimensional zig-zag shapes, like chevrons alternating direction or like step pyramids. The visuals are mostly neutral in terms of color, with some pinks and teals showing through. It seems as though the entire world is rippling with heat waves.
T2:15
Smoke more cannabis. Nausea is mild but not an issue at this point. The visuals are shimmery and shaky and overall very standard for phenethylamines. Nothing about them particularly stands out in my memory beyond the degree to which they were transforming and reorganizing themselves. Overall, they are somewhat lackluster, like an afterthought to the cognitive experience. The closed eyed space feels at once exhilarating and underwhelming.
I feel as though I have a view of soaring through various faint and indistinct landscapes of stepped forms and round shapes enclosed by sharper ones. It is not a sensation of myself actually soaring but rather one of simply viewing the passage through this space, as though I am watching it on TV. I am now joined by my roommate. I find conversation to flow easily, social skills in fact feel somewhat improved.
T2:45
The cognitive enhancement is marked and apparent. I feel like my mind is running on a manic fit of passion. I want to learn about things, I want to read and work out the intricate details of what I am interested in. I read about high level organization of the phylogenetic tree, as exciting as that sounds. But I find it impossible to tear my attention away from it and feel as though I am in a rush to memorize as much as I can about it. If only I could harness this to gain interest in my studies somehow and actually be successful in school. The visuals are now shimmery and fluttery, as if they are no longer textures applied to planes but rather 3D forms, not entirely tangible or coherent in any way, but flashy and ethereal, flitting through the darkness around me.
T3:20
Feeling a bit of shakiness now, still reading a lot, still awash in fading visuals in the darkness. I am beginning to see tracers behind movement now and am catching little interjections of phantom movement, followed by their own phantom tracers.
